Well like I said before your going to catch me on here rambling about whatever and speaking whats on my mind. Today has been a good day. We got somethings accomplished but has made a bigger mess in our living room because of it haha. What I have got strong in doing with the nursery in packing everything up for the time being and cleaning out the closet is now in totes in the living room till our storage building arrives sometime this week. O joy!!
Today we went to the pumpkin patch with my dad, and sisters to pick out a 'baby' pumpkin from all of us that we are going to decorate and put on her grave (carolines idea). We have 3 sweet little pumpkins that caroline, megan and I are going to paint tomorrow when I get off and take to her grave. I hope she will enjoy how much love she is getting on all these holidays because I know I will be out there decorating her sweet grave every holiday rain or shine. I will have to find as much RED stuff as I can because we think her favorite color is red due to the fact that her light up butterfly stays on red longer than any color. So im pretty sure she might not have cared to much for her pink room. Haha!
Tomorrow we go back to work and I am ready to go back but in the same sense I am not. Not looking forward to getting back in the swing of things and defintely not looking forward to facing this without my sweet husband. Steven is who is there when I break to tell me everything is going to be ok and she is in a better place. I pray I will make it through the day tomorrow. I definetly tell myself I can be strong. We went and got all the pictures chanda made for us printed off so I can show them off like a proud mama. Steven and I both have wallets and I have a photobook of a bazillion 4 x 6's....We also got a photo collage so we can hang her pictures up in the house and a 5 x 7 of our favorite pictures.
I miss her so much and I know I will see her again one day.
Stay strong ... one day at a time.
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