Praise God

God is good!!! Today as most of you know was my follow up appt with my ob.  I was extremely nervous about this appointment.  Nervous about walking through the same door I walked through 4 weeks ago at the same time I walked through it and found out that I would never get to meet my precious chloe on this earth.  I had asked for everyone to please say a prayer for me and surround me with their thoughts and love and believe me they were felt.  I walked through that door with such confidence that I would be ok and what I was going to hear was going to be exactly what Gods plan was and I was ok with whatever he wanted to use me for on this earth.  Caroline went with me because steven couldnt get away from work today.  We walked in signed in and turned around and caroline had sat in the same place she sat when we were here 4 weeks ago.  I was ok with this and decided to sit in the same seat I sat in that day as well.  They had me fill out one of those "questionaire" like  papers.  You know the ones where they ask you about every single system in your body and every single thing that possibly could be wrong with it.  ; ) When this little old woman who was sitting in front of us asked me a question.  "Is this your first time here?"  I said "no ma'am."  She said "Well they didnt give me one of those papers."  I felt like I needed to explain myself to this woman for some reason but didnt get a chance too.  I know that has nothing to do with anything but for some reason felt like I shouldve said something to that woman about chloe for some reason...guess I will never know or maybe I will.

They took us back and the doctor talked to me asking me if I was ok.  How was I holding up.  I felt at ease and felt as if I could talk to him forever for some reason.  He told me that the results of the chromosone test found that she had no abnormalities.  Like I said she was too beautiful for earth.  She was I know perfect.  I know now more than ever that it was an accident with the chord but my doctor wants me to go see the high risk doctor and get more blood test done but the great news was hearing that we could try again whenever we were ready.

See I know I have told everyone that I feel like everyone is going to think that I am forgetting about chloe by trying again but I am at peace that chloe is in heaven and I WILL see her again when I get there. Please continue to pray for us that it is God's will that we are blessed with another beautiful baby.